Friday, March 21, 2008

My jumbled thoughts

Once again, a gigantic thank you goes out to all of you who came by and left me such wonderful comments while Kamden was sick. He is feeling much better and is back to his cheery little self. We all missed him, he literally laid on the couch for two days straight. So very unlike our little monkey.

I am feeling a little strange today. I am so very happy that Kamden is better and that Jack is has not come down with it yet. I am still fervently praying he won’t.

Which brings me to why I am a bit off. I keep wondering why it is that it would upset me so much if he did get sick and the surgery had to be postponed. After all the surgery is not life threatening. Not even serious. If he never had it at all it wouldn’t be the end of the world. He would however, not have the opportunity to ever focus with both eyes. Which is huge if you happen to be his parents.

But the thing is that mentally preparing for it, both me and him has been something of a chore. He is scared. I am worried. Who wouldn’t be?

So to have to go through all that again, well, I just don’t want to. How mature is that?

It was Hannah’s comment on this post that helped me sort it out. Subconsciously I knew but I just couldn’t put my finger on it until she so eloquently expressed exactly how I was feeling. She’s been through at least two surgeries with her youngest, so who better to know exactly how I am feeling.
People who don’t blog? Well they are missing out on so much! The community and love is overwhelming. How did I ever live without it?

And I am slowly, VERY slowly, coming to a realization on this. That which has been tormenting my soul for over 2 years. I may just find peace. Eventually.

I wish each and everyone of you a wonderful Easter weekend. May it be filled with peace, joy and the love of your family.

I know mine will.

12 comments:

Motherhood for Dummies said...

glad to hear that he is doing better. It is always hard when a little one is sick

Lori said...

I'm glad to hear he is feeling better. I know how you feel about the surgery... it's like ok I've dealt with this in my own mind.. now lets just get it over with so we can go on with the recovery process. It's how I felt about hearing that Richard needed surgery on his collarbone. You know it needs to be done, you want it done so he can go on and be the best Jack he can be

Hannah said...

Hey babe! I'm glad that my comment helped you a little. I totally agree about how supportive the blogging community is ... I have been on the receiving end of that support many times, and you are one of my special friends who give ME support & advice & encouragement when I need it.

A very Happy Easter to you and your wonderful family! I am so glad that Kamden is better and I guess our prayers for Jack paid off too! :-)

teeni said...

This post just makes me smile. And oh, so true that the people who don't blog are missing out. We truly are blessed to have Hannah here as well as all the other wonderful people like her.

It's good to see good people supporting other good people! :)

Anonymous said...

He of course was going to get better when he had hi sfavorite moomy in the world by his side for days in end.
He and the rest of you thank you so muuch for all you did to keep the household going over the last week.
Here is to a couple of days off before you have the other child to nurse back to health.
You are truly amazing and we love you more then anything.

The boys

KATE said...

What a sweet post! I hope he's doing better & that you're feeling better too!
Happy Easter to you too

Anna-borderline-bonkers-banana :) said...

I am sooo praying for both you and Jack when it comes to his surgery. I haven't dealt with that but the thought of it, even when it isn't really serious makes me nervous.
I think you are amazing, you have such a true and sensitive spirit, no matter what life throws at you , you face and persevere.

Thank you for the fantastic night out. Once again I feel like we could have chatter for a few more hours.

So , when do you feel like folding socks?
;-)

Tracey said...

Happy Easter hon. Hope everyone feels well and that the surgery goes smoothly and on time...

CC said...

Big hugs!

Alex Elliot said...

Happy Easter! Glad that everyone is feeling better.

Natalie said...

Happy Easter! I am glad he is feeling better. I agree that people who don't blog and don't get to know the blogging community are missing out!

Karen MEG said...

I hope you had a great Easter Kami, and the boys are doing well.