Tuesday, February 08, 2011

Down a Life, or Three

Our Saturday was typical. My parents were in town to watch Kamden play soccer the night before and left just after lunch.

It was a beautiful day and Jack and Kamden had energy to burn so I told them to go outside and play. Lord knows we get a handful of winter days where it's not so cold you lose appendages in minutes. It's a simple situation of enjoying them when you can. And by you, I mean them. Not me. Double standard? Damn straight.

Kamden took the bait. Jack, well he takes after me. Nothing short of a threat to his life will make him venture out.

I asked Kamden if he would walk down to the end of the street to get the mail. He said he couldn't do it by himself.

No worries said Jay, he will go along with him.

Kamden is ready before Jay and heads outside.

This is not big deal. He is 6 and half years old. He knows the rules. He stays in the yard, off the street, yadda yadda.

Jay gets dressed and I hear him say he can't find the mail key. I yell that it likely fell somewhere - it is small and constantly getting lost. He takes my keys which have a second mail key.

A few minutes later, as I am dusting the living room (annual event! there were balloons and everything!) I see Jay standing on the sidewalk looking perplexed. He mouths he can't find Kamden.

I run to the front door (side actually if you want to be technical) and open it. He can't find him. I throw on my coat and a pair of shoes (boots, flip flops? who knows by this point?) and run out.

We. can't. find. him. anywhere.

He is not in the front yard. He is not in the back yard. There was fresh snow but I could not see foot prints.

It may have been 2 minutes. It felt like 20 hours.

We run into the house and yell. We yell outside.

He is no where.

I am using my I am freaking right the hell out here and can't stop panicking voice (you should hear it, it's nothing short of awesome).

I check everywhere I can think of. So does Jay.

Finally Jay runs down the street. There is Kamden at the damn mailbox. Which, for the record we cannot see from our house because the street curves. Apparently we also very swift that it took us that long to clue in to look there. In our defense, he usually means what he says. He said he wasn't going so I presumed he didn't.

I am down at least three lives. And also, we now know where the mail key was. Detectives, we are not.

I know the terror that parents feel when the possibility that one of their children is gone forever feels. It was literally 2 minutes and I kept thinking, here it is, the moment that will forever change my life. The moment in time that will split my life into two parts. Before and after.

Yet despite that, fully expecting him to pop up at any moment. I have the privilege of knowing the relief of finding him. So many parents never know that relief.

To say I am grateful is an understatement.

Mental note, just because he says he isn't going to do something, doesn't mean he won't.

Snow, snow and more snow

After he was found, he and Jay build a snowman. It was so warm he decided he had to pose in his T-shirt. And I let him. Wonders never cease.

Also, notice the level of the snow compared to the car. We have had a LOT of snow here in Saskabush.


God I love this kid. Plain and simply, I cannot imagine life without him.


Completely unrelated! Practicing his speech. He, apparently, has a lisp. I, personally, think it is part of his charm.


Jack was doing some homework on the computer while all this was going down. He started running around the house yelling for Kamden too.

Then after he says, he wasn't worried at all. Uh huh, sure buddy, whatever you say.

To state the obvious, I gave Kamden a little further instruction on telling us if he is going somewhere before he leaves. Explaining that Mommy gets a tad bit worried when I don't know where he is.

Mommy can only handle one heart failure a year. Max.


Elaine A. said...

OH goodness, that IS so scary!!! You know? I lost G IN THE HOUSE once. He was maybe 20 months and under his brother's bed eating candy. It was a stellar moment. I couldn't find him though for like 5 minutes and I was FREAKING out!! I get it.

Lori: Teacher Turned Mommy said...

oh wow that is major heart failure moment in life. glad he was where he was findable and hope you enjoyed a strong drink or at least some chocolate after that one

Debbie said...

Oh, I can relate. That happened to us at the zoo! It's crazy scary.
Now we really know what it's like to want to hold them forever and kill them at the same time!
You can bring that one up at his wedding. :)

Jen Wilson said...

SO SCARY!!! That happened with Liliana in a grocery store a couple weeks ago - she completely vanished. So, yea, I know that that voice sounds like BECAUSE I WAS USING IT. Crazy kids. Glad he's okay and found!!!!

Angella said...

We lost Emily for about a minute at Disneyland (she wandered around a corner while we were ordering food) and I have never been so scared in my life.


Glad all turned out fine. Phew.

Kami said...

Whooo! Freakin' kids. They have no idea what they do to us!

Cheryl said...

goodness . I would have freaked out too......I can imagine you in panic mode..not pretty ....

Great snowman!!!!!

Ashley said...

Just reading that gave me goosebumps and nausea! Losing my children in one way shape or form, runs in with my greatest fears!

So glad he's safe and sound. And also, so glad I live in BC where we do NOT have snow like that ;)

Stacie's Madness said...

worst fear ever...so glad he was ok

Anonymous said...

Definitely scary, we have had a few moments like that over the years and I know firsthand the panicky feeling that a mother gets. The last time it happened was only a week ago at my parents' place. Tyler decided to go over to the playground (which is close enough that we can see it from the deck) but he didn't TELL US FIRST. He also got that speech!

I'm glad you found Kamden quickly and all is well now ... how long did it take you to calm down though? I'm always "edgy" for at least another hour!

R Royal Family said...

yikes scary. That is my worst nightmare. Love how he took off his shirt!

Midwest Mommy said...

That would terrify me.

Kristin said...

Terrifying. At 3, C ran into an empty elevator in a 7 story parking garage, a split second before the door closed. I didn't know if it was going up or down. It really freaked me out and took about 20 mins to find him and a lot of yelling for help. Just thinking of the memory of that feeling is terrible. I'm glad he is ok. On the bright side you are raising a confident child.