Once again, a gigantic thank you goes out to all of you who came by and left me such wonderful comments while Kamden was sick. He is feeling much better and is back to his cheery little self. We all missed him, he literally laid on the couch for two days straight. So very unlike our little monkey.
I am feeling a little strange today. I am so very happy that Kamden is better and that Jack is has not come down with it yet. I am still fervently praying he won’t.
Which brings me to why I am a bit off. I keep wondering why it is that it would upset me so much if he did get sick and the surgery had to be postponed. After all the surgery is not life threatening. Not even serious. If he never had it at all it wouldn’t be the end of the world. He would however, not have the opportunity to ever focus with both eyes. Which is huge if you happen to be his parents.
But the thing is that mentally preparing for it, both me and him has been something of a chore. He is scared. I am worried. Who wouldn’t be?
So to have to go through all that again, well, I just don’t want to. How mature is that?
It was Hannah’s comment on this post that helped me sort it out. Subconsciously I knew but I just couldn’t put my finger on it until she so eloquently expressed exactly how I was feeling. She’s been through at least two surgeries with her youngest, so who better to know exactly how I am feeling.
People who don’t blog? Well they are missing out on so much! The community and love is overwhelming. How did I ever live without it?
And I am slowly, VERY slowly, coming to a realization on this. That which has been tormenting my soul for over 2 years. I may just find peace. Eventually.
I wish each and everyone of you a wonderful Easter weekend. May it be filled with peace, joy and the love of your family.
I know mine will.