Not so much with the rainbows and unicorns, that's what. I have been grumpy, moody, tired and suffering from numerous headaches. And I know what it is. It's what it always is. My hormones. AGAIN. They are the bane of my existence. They are either right where they need to be and I feel great (see above re: rainbows and unicorns) or as of late, they are not right where they need to be. I just wish I knew where they needed to be and even better, how to not only get them there, but keep them there.
And going to the doctor? Well here's how I feel about that.
The problems I have are not big, they are not life threatening but annoying, oh hell to the yes. Like the fact that this entire week I have felt like a truck has run over me for example, not endearing, folks, no endearing. I mean 10 hours of sleep should be more than enough, shouldn't it?
I also have no energy. I try to work out but I just don't have it in me. It's more than just not wanting to do it. It's not being able to do it with my normal intensity.
Crusty enough to treat myself to both popcorn and ice cream last night. That's right, something I haven't done in ages because in the last few months I have discovered that the less of that kind of thing I eat, the better I feel and the more energy I have.
So this week, despite all my healthy eating, I have felt like the dog poop stuck to the bottom of someone's shoe. So why shouldn't I eat some crap, I mean, I couldn't possibly feel worse at this point, could I?
Wait, don't answer that. Here's the thing. I know what is causing the issue. I know why I am grumpy. I know it will pass. But in the throes of it, I forget and I see that fine line between sane and not so sane. And sometimes I feel like I am getting a little too close for comfort to that line.
It gives me a much profounder and deeper understanding of mental illness.