There are days when I feel like should question this whole blogging thing, or use of the internet for personal purposes period.
Once a month I gather with some fellow moms for good food, company and camaraderie. Last month the topic of discussion drifted towards Facebook. About half the group, including myself, are members. The other half is not. Many of them were very vocal about why and it had me questioning my own beliefs about it.
Do I consider that my family may be at risk when I post pictures of them on the internet?
Do I just ignore this risk because of the gratification that I get?
Should I remove all the pictures and now?
Internally I was torn between what I believe and the beliefs of others. Nothing new really but what was different about this was the fact that I started feeling like I was putting my kids in some terrible danger.
Then I stopped, shook my head and took a deep breath.
Every day is a day exposed to grave danger for the simple act of being.
We could be hit by a bus. They could run out into the street and be run over. A crane could crash into our house as we sleep (it really happened just a neighborhood over – the power company is in hot water now!).
I am a social person. I am also a SAHM. My computer is my network. Without it I would be rocking in a straight jacket in a mental institution by now.
The point is that my connections through the internet are my lifeline. I have made some pretty cool reconnections through Facebook and a few have even gone further than the internet. I was terrible at keeping in touch with people over the years and now, Facebook gave me the opportunity to re-connect. Some connections will continue, some died for a reason. Either way, we get a second chance to find out.
My blog has become an extension of me. I have fostered a love of writing that I didn’t even know existed. I used to have trouble forming a coherent sentence. Now the verbiage spills out of me like a volcano erupting. It may still not be coherent but it gives me an outlet for my creativity – which is all contained in my left pinky toenail by the way– and has fostered new connections that bring me so much gratification. Lately, things have been humming over here. I have been getting sweet comments from my regulars Angella ,Candace , my wonderful hubby Jay, and Mom and some new people too, a great big hi and thanks for visiting to Hannah, Kristin, LVGurl -she even linked me in an ode to Canada post – colour me happy! - and Beach Mama.
I could lie and say that I do this for fun and that the comments don’t matter but that would be a big fat fib. The comments, well, let’s just say that until quite recently I was getting a bit disgruntled with the fact that the traffic here was really sparse, and the comments were limited to my two devoted readers, Candace and Angella. I had stopped posting all that much because, honestly, the fact that no one was reading it was really not helping with the creativity. When it’s as limited as mine, outside intervention is required. Not to mention that I was starting to think that I must be the biggest loser ever because people might stop by once never to return. Surely, it had to be me, I'm insecure like that.
However, the most important reason I keep this going (aside from the personal validation) is that it keeps our extended family (Hi Mom, Dad, Mom-in-law, Dad-in-law, Michelle) connected to us. We live in a different city and while we talk on the phone frequently, they miss the day to day stuff. It gives me so much satisfaction to know that they get to experience this with us even though it’s not in person. And they keep coming back too, so they must enjoy it a little bit too, either that or they get a kick out me making a fool of myself. Whatever works.
In summary, this here blog, my friends, is a GOOD thing. The paybacks are priceless. I am a happier person which means my kiddos get a happy mommy and Jay comes home to a fulfilled wife. Plus I get to make new connections in cyberspace, which, by the way, is a pretty cool place.
Until such time as I see it as a threat to my cubs, I'll be here, rambling on.