Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Why It Is Good to Be Me

A friend commented yesterday that I am in such a good place right now. Between that and a high school acquaintance's FB comment (that I am positive would be a friend if we lived closer - hi Tirzah!):

"I am truly grateful for: 1) no wind this morning, 2) that I am strong enough to stand up for what I believe in and what I want in my life, and 3) a supportive man who allows me to be me!"

It made me sit back and reflect. Damn straight I am in a good place! I have always been strong to stand up for what I have wanted in my life, and I have been sharing life with the perfect man for me for the last 17 years.

I take none of this for granted.

I remember where I was and how far I have come.

I no longer pine for something more; for something a little different than my reality.

I am living my life instead of hoping for a different life.

There are so many 'what if's' in the world and we can spend a lifetime wishing and hoping for something different.

I did that for a time. I, personally, would not recommend it.

I am so grateful that I have somehow, no doubt by the grace of God, found contentment. I look forward to every new day not because I hope it will bring something better, but that it will be more of the same.

Daily, there is something to remind me that this is how it was supposed to be:

- A dinner out to a nice restaurant with the four of us

- a trip to Las Vegas for the two of us with no worries that our boys would not be perfectly fine with their Grammy and Granddaddy (more on that trip later, I promise)

- a concert night for the two of us while the boys stayed home with a teenage babysitter (they are 9 and 6 and last month was the first time - yes, really)

- my health and fitness because really, if things had turned out the way I had once wanted, I would not be where I am today in that regard

- making my boys laugh because they are old enough to 'get it'

I can't really describe adequately in words what I feel. The best way to describe it is peace, joy, love and contentment all rolled together into a ball of excitement for what the future will bring for our family and for my career, which I can now focus on a little bit more.

That is why it is good to be me. If I could share a little piece of this with everyone I know and love, I truly would.


Lori: Teacher Turned Mommy said...

if you can't feel comfortable in your own skin, and with your own choices... than will you ever be comfortable??

glad you've found happiness in yourself

Elaine A. said...

Definitely sounds like a 'happy place' to me. And that my dear is so worth whatever it took to get there! This post made me smile really big for you! :D

Cheryl said...

you beam now....love that you're in a happy place...

Angella said...

This made me smile.

HOORAY for happy places!

R Royal Family said...

You deserve all the peace and happiness you have found. Enjoy being you!

Ashley said...

I'm so glad you're happy with you because I know we sure are! Great post, so nice to read someone write something positive about themselves.

Stacie's Madness said...

ah happy is good. :)

I love that my kids are getting my jokes now. :)

Kristin said...

Such great vibes you are sending. Don't forget to put this note on your fridge mid Jan -40. Things will still be great then, just better indoors. I love how you write.

Anonymous said...

This is such a great post!

I am SO happy that you are happy, because you really deserve it!